teary day

Up and down kind of day today.

One of the first adoption related thoughts of my day (there are usually many) was when I heard news that a family waiting for their court date, lost their baby (as in, the baby passed away). I don't know details, but saw the prayer request here. What heartache. To lose your baby before you have ever laid your eyes on their sweet face. I know some of you have experienced that it your lives, through adoption or pregnancy. My heart ached with sadness and it brought tears to my eyes.

One of my second adoption thoughts of the day was when I had a few GLORIOUS child free hours this morning hanging out with my mom (one of my favorite things to do). She listens to me enthusiastically as I ramble on and on and on about life and adoption. It seems like she never gets tired of listening to me babble on and on. Even if she does, she never lets me know it. She is the best! Ok, back to the topic, I went on a rabbit trail. Mom and I were out and about and we hit my favorite resale shop, Little Bo'tique. I love going there, the owner/operator Shauna has the cutest stuff, great taste! I love it. I have been worried for her about her business with that dumb new law (see my rant here) coming up next week. I was SO HAPPY today when she told me that it has been postponed for one year! That was great news (but I didn't cry over that.) Anyhow, Shauna is so sweet. I go in there regularly, and of course I was looking at the cute little girl things. She said, "why do you have girl things? You have little boys, right?" (side note: I love to be known. I love that she remembers me!) I told here we were adopting and she got all excited and exclaimed, "I am adopted!" She was really happy that we were adopting. She and 2 siblings were adopted and she told me a poem that was on the wall in thier house growing up...

Not flesh of my flesh
Nor bone of my bone,
But still miraculously
My own.
Never forget
For a single minute:
You didn't grow under my heart,
But in it.

--Fleur Conkling Heyliger

THAT made me cry. I love that simple statement. I will find it or make it for baby girl's wall.

Then, we went to Costco. While their we ran into a dear friend who's having a rough week. This sweet family has a son who about a year and a half ago, found out that he had Leukemia, at 6 years old. Thankfully, he has been cancer free for exactly one year today! They have an amazing faith, that has blessed so many, as they've journeyed this road. BUT, today, on the one year mark, my sweet friend, was heavy hearted as they await test results from their son's one year testing. As we stood and visited, we all cried. Good and heavy hearted tears. We prayed together in the aisles of costco. God has already used this family and thier story for his glory and I know he's not done yet.

Then, I came home, read blog updates and saw this one. Cried AGAIN.

Teary day, but those aren't always bad. I cry easy, if you haven't noticed.

It's only 3:30...holy moly. OK, back to painting my bathroom. Because, our social worker is REALLY GOING TO CARE what color my bathroom is on monday when she comes for our home visit, RIGHT? Yes, I do know that I'm a little nuts right now.